Life is....fragile

Life is truly fragile, isn’t it? Because we are young we have this strange feeling of invincibility at times; as if anything could bounce off of us. Nothing could possibly harm us…as if we could truly conquer the world and all of it’s elements. Then something happens and you realize how fragile you really are. How you truly rely on people in your life, and when they are gone God shows you that your source of dependence needs to be on HIM. That your trust cannot be in the “fragile”. Not saying that we should not “trust” those around us…but remembering that our Sustainer is not a spouse…or a relationship here on earth. How the only ONE who will sustain us through the most difficult of situations in Christ.

This has truly been a testing time for our family. Four years ago Matt was diagnosed with a heart condition. A condition that is a birth defect, yet a part of his condition is still unexplainable….his weakened heart. His doctors are now working with him to strengthen his heart, with us knowing the reality that he will have surgery at some point to replace that valve…just not now. I wish I had more to tell you regarding his physical heart, yet they continue to run tests and are looking at 2 procedures to help his heart function. (When he stands up and can do the happy dance I will "dance" with joy)

So, here we sit in “fragility” knowing the only sustainer is Christ. My “strong man” having to find his strength from within and not with the physical. What a journey this has been. God has His time frame. Could He heal Matt tomorrow? Sure. Yet during this time our dependence on HIM is growing. Faithy and Joshua pray for daddy every night. With Joshua’s Autism, and now PANDAS D/O he is having a hard time with daddy not being home. Yet I am amazed with how God has been comforting him in unique ways. (Thank you Kimberly for taking him to play legos with Ben!)

Life is so fragile, isn’t it? So, here we are…in our fragile state….standing….no wait, face down at His throne. Knowing that only there will we find rest and comfort during these moments of uncertainty….moments of fragility.

There is a truth I know…God is never fragile, He has never left us, He has His timing, He is our Father….I hold tight to his promises…even in the midst of this fragile life.

No matter where you are in your journey I urge you, and I can almost hear my grandfather in my voice when I say, don’t take any breath or moment in your life for granted. I love something that Jim Elliot once said, “Walk as if your next step would take you over the threshold of Heaven.”

Life is fragile. I am glad there is one who walks before me planning my course. One who walks with me and at times carries me. I am thankful for how He has expressed Himself through people and how I have seen and experienced Him in some truly unique ways this year. I am learning so much how life is fragile...and so precious.

Take time this week and reflect on how He walks before you and what it truly means to depend. Has anything happened where He is telling you to sit, rest, be still and just trust Him and not react to what is happening around you?

Know you are all loved. Know that you are ever in our thoughts and conversations with God. Know how much we appreciate all you do and how you are truly an expression of THE BODY!

Much love,
Angel