Face Down...and not drowning

I have learned more about what it truly means to approach the throne of grace with confidence from my children than all the education I received in seminary.

A few weeks ago Matt went to speak with someone about our finances. With our son’s autism, my health issues and now Matt’s heart it has become an “interesting adventure.” That morning I found myself standing in the kitchen crying out in my heart to God and then all of a sudden I found myself face down on the floor, arms stretched out, sobbing to my Father. As I laid there praying I heard my precious daughter say to our son, “Joshua, mommy’s dead.” I then voiced through tears, “No, mommy’s just praying to Jesus.”
There was silence when all of sudden I felt Faith lay down beside me, face down with the her hands over mine and then Joshua laid face down in front of me, his hands also on mine and Faith’s. There we were lying at the foot of Jesus and all I heard were my children saying, “Thank you, Jesus, thank you, Jesus…” So, together we came, face down and thanked the Lord for everything.

I want to share one last thing in this entry regarding what trust means, what it means to come before His throne with confidence knowing that He will show mercy and grace to help us in our time of need. (Hebrews 4:16)

Below Section copied with permission from The True Intimacy of Becoming a Water Walker
Author: Angel Thompson
Copyright Year: © 2006
Published by Unleashing Potential Ministries, Wooster, Ohio
All Rights Reserved.


EPILOGUE
It was unseasonably warm for March as we drove into the driveway after Joshua’s therapy. He had been asking for French Fries and I tried to explain that mommy did not have money to buy French Fries that day. As he exited the van he cupped his hands over his mouth like a mega phone and began calling out…for Jesus. “Jesus, Jesus, where are You? I need French Fries…..Jesus….give Mommy money….Jesus.” With that, he then walked quietly to the door with a smile.

He had come to the throne seeking Jesus. He knocked, asked and left his request there, trusting in the Lord who brought him snow months earlier. Joshua is a Water Walker, and has a unique understanding of Jesus.

Often times in our lives, as we grow older, our sense of “knowing” that Christ is our source becomes less. Whatever the reason, it happens and it takes work and effort to look beyond everything that comes at us and trust that God is truly in control.Daily Joshua reminds me of that incredible child-like faith. Something I know he will carry with him always and I am a bit envious of that, and so I choose to learn from my son as he truly trusts “Jesus” to meet his every child like need, and even mommy’s as we pass the fast food store and he says without hesitation, “Jesus, give mommy money for French Fries, please.”

You see, to be a Water Walker takes a “child like faith” to step out onto the uncertain waters of life and seek HIS face, the true source of life.

I honestly cannot end this book without mentioning our daughter, Faith, in which she is named appropriately when it comes to being a Water Walker.

If there is one thing Faith loves to do, it is to stand at the top of the steps and fall into my arms. She knows that I am not going to let her fall. She trusts me, and that relationship we have gives her the comfort and sense of love that allows her to “fall”. It has been through my son and daughter that I have continued to be challenged in my own walk as a Water Walker. To be a Water Walker honestly takes trust. However, your trust is meaningless unless you have a relationship with the One you are stepping out to walk with.

God has used two very small vessels to remind me of my need for the deep and intimate relationship with Him, and the trust in Him that allows me to face the uncertainty of life. Do I have moments where I feel like I am sinking? I am not ashamed to say yes. It is in those moments that I am gently reminded of my position in Christ, one that was established the moment I gave my life to HIM. I am His daughter…standing at the top of the stairs and on the edge of the boat looking out at my Lord with His arms reaching out telling me to “jump, trust me…I will not let you drown.”
Do you know your position in Christ? If so, don’t be afraid to walk out on the waters of life’s uncertainty.

Isaiah 42:3 “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.”